Joshua Malachi Fisher

My beautiful little brother Joshua Malachi Fisher was born in Carlisle, Cumbria uk on Satuarday the 20th of may 2006 and became an angel on Thursday the 22nd of June 2006 aged 4 weeks and 5 days old.
Josh was born with a chromasone disorder called Edwards syndrome (Trisomy 18)
We had Joshua at home for exactley 4 weeks on oxygen.
I miss you so much Josh. Love you forever and ever xxxxx
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This is not goodbye
Just time to rest your head
The moon will be your pillow
The stars above your bed
Sweet dreams forever
And do not fear
my little man you will always be remembered
for all the precious times we share.
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Please
(by Rita Moran)

PLEASE, don't ask me if I'm over it yet.
I'll never be over it.

PLEASE, don't tell me he's in a better place.
He isn't here with me.

PLEASE, don't say at least he isn't suffering.
I haven't come to terms with why he had to suffer at all.

PLEASE, don't ask me if I feel better.
Bereavement isn't a condition that clears up.

PLEASE, don't tell me at least you had him for so many weeks.
What week would you choose for someone so pecious to die?

PLEASE, don't tell me God never gives us more than we can bear.


PLEASE, just say you are sorry.
PLEASE, just say you remember Joshua, if you do.
PLEASE, just let me talk about him.
PLEASE, mention his name.


PLEASE, just let me cry.
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love u today as I will love u tomorrow
I loved you from the start and will love u until I end

Although I cant hear u I always feel u
Although I cant hold u I can always imagine u

I close my eyes and I see you
I open my arms and you rush into them
I kiss your cheek and you laugh
I kiss your head and you run away
I call your name and you turn around
I call you back but you turn away
I open my eyes and you’ve gone again
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' when i first saw u i already knew there was something inside of you something i thought id never find.... angel of mine,

i look at you, looking at me, now i know why they say the best things are free gonna love you till the end of time.... angel of mine,

what you mean to me you'll never know deep inside i need to show,

you came into my life sent from above, better then a dream such a perfect love
and ill adore you till the end of time.. angel of mine'
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how did he passaway?
sorry i find it too hurtful to say .

they say there is a reason that they are took away from you and its gods will try telling us that when it happens takes you the rest of your life to try to come to terms with it.
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Author: Charlotte Collins
We had so little time to share,
Too soon, I had to leave.
I know how much you love me,
I know how much you grieve.

I know how sharp your pain is,
I feel the aching in your hearts.
My life so quickly ended
Before it barely had a start.

I remember how you held me,
And kissed my face and hands,
You cuddled me so gently;
But, God had other plans.

I was your perfect angel,
From God you knew I came,
Suddenly he called me home again,
And now God holds my hand.

I know you’ll always miss me,
I understand your pain is hard to bear.
Just remember that I’m in heaven
And we’ll see each other there.

So smile when you think of me
and wipe away all of your tears
I’m cuddled now in heaven
By our family members here.

I’m waiting here in heaven,
And on the day we meet again.
I’ll be the first to smile and greet you,
When God calls you home to him.

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I have to believe
that you still exist
somewhere
that you still watch me
sometimes
that you still love me
somehow...


I have to belive
that life has meaning
somehow
that i am useful here
sometimes
that i make small differences
somewhere...


I have to believe
that i need to stay here
for sometime
that all this teaches me
something
so that i can meet you again
somewhere...

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"How do you pick up the threads of an old life? How do you go on, when in your heart you begin to understand there is no going back. There are some things time cannot mend, some hurts that go too deep, that have taken a hold."

from Lord of The Rings, by J.R.R.Tolkien